In the hour-long conversation, Angelakos told Ellis, “During their hour-long conversation, Angelakos told Ellis, “I am saying something that I’ve never said before publicly.”
Angelakos discussed how his life informed his art and the other way around, in relation to his romances and otherwise. And when he married his wife Kirsty Mucci (the two would later divorce) he said his sexuality became a non-issue due to their close friendship, describing it as “putting it off in my head.”
“I just wanted so badly to be straight, because I love her so much” he said. “I think that was one of the most painful things when we decided to separate.”
Later, he discussed how he had rejected the idea of being gay early in his life because he hadn’t seen the type of gay role models personified to embody some of his own creative and career goals.
“I didn’t see the powerful dude at the corner office of the Fortune 500 company, even though I didn’t aspire to be that, that guy wasn’t gay the way he was portrayed,” he said. “So I just thought well if I become gay i’m never going to become any of these cool things that I keep wanting to be. And it was as though how much of myself can I edit so that I can be? And honesty that wasn’t a conscious decision, at least after a certain point, but certainly now I look back at it and I’m just like well how much of my would could have been better if I’d just stopped caring?”
Listen to the whole interview here: