Lil Peep, the flourishing emo rapper who died last week at age 21, had a lot to say in a short amount of time. In a posthumous interview with MONTREALITY, recorded in April and released Tuesday, the MC spoke about his childhood hobbies, the rappers who influenced him and his advice for kids struggling with depression.
Before the angsty punk-rap hybrid dominated SoundCloud and Spotify, he paid his dues in the service industry as a teenager. “I was a kitchen bitch at a local seafood restaurant where I did a lot of really disgusting shit early in the morning,” Peep recalled. One day, the horrors of killing sea creatures got the best of him. “I’m a mass crab murderer. I cut the faces off of 300 crabs that day and I never went back,” he said, flashing a thumbs-up to the camera.
Peep also confessed his love for the original Scooby-Doo cartoon, as well as fantasy role-playing video games like RuneScape, World of Warcraft and The Elder Scrolls series. He traced his love of hip-hop back to the Atlanta scene, citing Future, Gucci Mane and iLoveMakonnen as some of his favorites.
The most chilling part of the interview came when the MONTREALITY crew asked Peep what life would be like as an 86-year-old. “I’m dead as f—. I’m long gone,” he said. “If I find someone and if I fall in love with someone, if I have a kid, you know what I mean, shit might change. But right now, I’m out here making music. The shit I talk about is real, so, you know, not much to lose right now. But I’m here, I’m doing my thing, so f— it.”
The rapper, who candidly discussed his own drug use and battle with depression on social media, offered words of encouragement for people facing similar demons or contemplating suicide. “Everything changes with time,” he said. “You can’t predict where you’re gonna be next year. You have no idea.”
He continued: “My mom always tells me time will heal everything. And even if it’s five years later and you’re still feeling like, ‘Where the f—? I’m waiting for this shit to heal. Nothing’s happening.’ It’s gonna take another few years. That shit does take time. But it will eventually get better.”
Watch the full interview below: