The article was published on Wednesday (March 6), after the fashion magazine revealed the pop star is its April cover star on Instagram. Swift opens the essay by writing that she will update fans on whether “your thirties are ‘the most fun!’” but in the meantime, wanted to share what she’s learned so far, because “it’s 2019 and sharing is caring.”
“According to my birth certificate, I turn 30 this year,” she begins. “It’s weird because part of me still feels 18 and part of me feels 283, but the actual age I currently am is 29.” Among the lessons the award winning singer-songwriter shares are learning to “stop hating every ounce of fat” on her body and how “disarming someone’s petty bullying can be as simple as learning how to laugh.”
She also opens up about how “terrified” she was to go on tour after the Manchester Arena bombing in 2017, and how her “fear of violence” has seeped into her own personal life. “Websites and tabloids have taken it upon themselves to post every home address I’ve ever had online.You get enough stalkers trying to break into your house and you kind of start prepping for bad things,” she writes. “Every day I try to remind myself of the good in the world, the love I’ve witnessed and the faith I have in humanity.”
On No. 24 of the lessons she’s learned, she also reveals that her mother’s cancer has returned. “Both of my parents have had cancer, and my mom is now fighting her battle with it again. It’s taught me that there are real problems and then there’s everything else. My mom’s cancer is a real problem,” the Reputation singer writes.
She writes that the serious illnesses in her family have taught her to “give all of my worry, stress, and prayers to real problems now.”
See her spread on ELLE’s April issue below, and read the rest of her 30 lessons on their website now.