It’s all of nothing. That’s how Melanie Chisholm (aka Mel C) felt after talks broke down last year to launch a 20th anniversary Spice Girls reunion. As far as Sporty Spice was concerned, if everyone wasn’t in, the tour was a no-go.
The “Wannabe” singer known for her track suits and attitude explains why she ultimately passed on what would have surely been a huge nostalgia payday in a new essay in The Love magazine, in which she reflects on the upside (and downside) of fame, her lifelong adoration of Madonna and the unbreakable forever bond she shares with her fellow Girls.
“You’re not going to get me complaining about my life – it’s brilliant,” Chisholm, 42, writes. “I know some people complain about the attention – but I wanted to be famous from the start. Like the rest of the Spice Girls I learnt very early on that you can’t take one slice of the pie when it comes to fame. You have to eat the whole thing.” Fame as hard at first, but Mel said after 20 years, “lots of therapy” and motherhood she’s at peace with achieving her childhood dream of celebrity.
And while she will always love performing and entertaining, what she could not come to an understanding about was reuniting the group when it became clear that not everyone was on board. “Look, I will be a Spice Girl until I die. But the continuous speculation on whether we will reform to celebrate 20 years of Wannabe has been particularly exhausting,” she says of talk that the quintet might get the band back together to celebrate two decades since the release of their breakthrough “Wannabe” single.
“Don’t get me wrong – I totally get it. But is it a new rule that bands have to reform? Why can’t we just be remembered for our incredible achievements in the nineties. When we embarked on the  reunion tour it was amazing, scary and surreal all at the same time. The five of us back together again. Like we’d stepped back in time for a global celebration of the band.”
While Geri Horner (Ginger Spice), Mel B (Scary Spice) and Emma Bunton (Baby Spice) were reportedly eager to launch a major international tour, Chisholm said after some face to face meetings earlier this year with the group she “made the difficult decision not to be part of a proposed reunion.” With Victoria Beckham (Posh Spice) out because of the demands of her fashion label and family, Chisholm said something felt off.
“The hardest part for me was letting people down, the girls, the fans, civilisation?!,” she says. “Unfortunately something didn’t feel quite right and I had to follow my gut.”
Click here to read the full essay.