YouTube vlogger Logan Paul apologized once again on Tuesday (Jan. 2) for a video he posted — and has since removed — that appeared to show a Japanese suicide victim.
“I’ve made a severe and continuous lapse in my judgment, and I don’t expect to be forgiven,” Paul says in the nearly two-minute video. “I’m simply here to apologize.”
The latest apology comes after Paul uploaded a macabre clip filmed in Japan’s Aokigahara, known as the “suicide forest” for the high number of suicides that take place there, that earned the former Vine star a deluge of criticism over the weekend. Before it was removed, the post showing the 22-year-old and some friends happening upon what appears to be the hanging body of a man had accumulated millions of views. “Did we just find a dead person in the suicide forest, hanging?” Paul is heard asking of what he later terms the “most real vlog” he’s ever made.
In the apology video — which followed up on a written mea culpa posted on New Year’s Day in which Paul said he didn’t post the clip “for views,” but because he thought he could “make a positive ripple on the internet” by raising awareness for suicide prevention — Paul explains that the stunt was not planned and that the reactions seen on tape from himself and his friends were “raw and unfiltered.” He admits that he should not have posted the video and instead should have put the cameras down and stopped recording, saying he is ashamed, disappointed in himself and does not expect to be forgiven.
“There’s a lot of things I should have done differently, but I didn’t,” he says. “And for that, from the bottom of my heart, I am sorry.” Paul then apologizes to the internet, anyone who saw the video, those affected by mental illness, suicide or depression and, most importantly, to the victim and his family. He also implored fans who’ve defended his actions to stop doing so. “The goal of my content is always to entertain, push the boundaries, to be all-inclusive,” but never with the intent to be “heartless, cruel or malicious.”
Watch the video apology below: