Demi Lovato has opened up about the darkest time in her life in her new YouTube Originals docuseries, Dancing With the Devil. The four-part series, which explores her near fatal 2018 overdose, continues with episode three on Tuesday (March 30), and Billboard has an exclusive first look.
In the clip above, the 28-year-old discusses some of her motivation to get her life back on track after her OD. “I remember being in my hospital bed and thinking, ‘All right, how do I fix this? How do I get back to doing what I love, which is making music?'” Lovato ponders in the video.
She later adds of her single “Anyone,” which arrived in January 2020, “I feel like with ‘Anyone,’ I knew that was a song I wanted to release coming out of all of this, because I thought if I ever make it back to the stage, I want to sing this song.”
And sing it she did. After an 18-month break from performing, Lovato returned to a major stage by debuting the emotional song at the 2020 Grammy Awards. Before making her highly anticipated return, she told Zane Lowe in an interview that “Anyone” was written just four days before her overdose.
“I wish I could go back in time and help that version of myself,” she said at the time. “I almost listen back and hear these lyrics as a cry for help. And you kind of listen back to it and you kind of think, ‘How did nobody listen to this song and think, ‘Let’s help this girl’?”
It’s not hard to see why Lovato felt the lyrics were a cry for help. The chorus pleads: “Anyone, please send me anyone/ Lord, is there anyone?/ I need someone, oh/ Anyone, please send me anyone/ Lord, is there anyone?/ I need someone.”
Shortly after “Anyone’s” Jan. 26, 2020, debut, it earned the singer her 30th career entry on the Billboard Hot 100, debuting at No. 34. The ballad was also her first time back on the chart since 2018’s “Sober” and “Solo.”
Check out the exclusive clip above to see what manager Scooter Braun says about Lovato’s songwriting, and watch episode three of Dancing With the Devil when it arrives on YouTube March 30 at 3 p.m. ET. Lovato’s new album Dancing With the Devil… The Art of Starting Over, arrives Friday (April 2).