When Britney Spears told her truth during a 20-minute-plus public statement to Los Angeles Superior Court on Wednesday, it might have shocked fans who are only paying attention to her colorful and fun social media posts.
In a new message Thursday (June 24), Spears apologizes to fans for “pretending like I’ve been ok the past two years,” saying she put on a sunny facade because she was “embarrassed to share what happened to me.”
“I just want to tell you guys a little secret,” Spears started the message. “I believe as people we all want the fairy tale life and by the way I’ve posted … my life seems to look and be pretty amazing … I think that’s what we all strive for !!!! That was one of my mother’s best traits … no matter how shitty a day was when I was younger … for the sake of me and my siblings she always pretended like everything was ok. I’m bringing this to peoples attention because I don’t want people to think my life is perfect because IT’S DEFINITELY NOT AT ALL … and if you have read anything about me in the news this week … you obviously really know now it’s not !!!!
“I apologize for pretending like I’ve been ok the past two years,” the message continues. “I did it because of my pride and I was embarrassed to share what happened to me … but honestly who doesn’t want to capture there Instagram in a fun light !!!! Believe it or not pretending that I’m ok has actually helped.”
The image in the Instagram post included this quote, attributed to Albert Einstein: “If you want your children to be intelligent, read them fairy tales. If you wan them to be more intelligent, read them more fairy tales.”
“I decided to post this quote today because by golly if you’re going through hell … I feel like Instagram has helped me have a cool outlet to share my presence … existence … and to simply feel like I matter despite what I was going through and hey it worked … so I’ve decided to start reading more fairy tales !!!!!”
See her full message below:
Spears’ boyfriend, actor Sam Asghari, also shared some new videos on Thursday, with the pair trying out goofy Instagram filters and laughing aboard an airplane.
During Wednesday’s court hearing, Spears asked a judge to end her 13-year conservatorship, which controls her financial and personal decisions, and asked to pick new legal representation for herself. Her fellow celebrities — including Mariah Carey, Halsey and ex-boyfriend Justin Timberlake — came out in support of Spears and her request to take back ownership of her life.