Why 'Love Goes' Is Sam Smith's 'First Proper Heartbreak Album'

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Alasdair McLellan

Sam Smith

After months of delays thanks to the COVID-19 pandemic, Sam Smith's third studio album Love Goes is finally coming to fans this Friday.

To celebrate, Smith sat down with Apple Music's Zane Lowe to chat about the new album, which they said they are "relieved" to finally be sharing with their fans. "I feel a bit emotional, even now just saying it, talking about this record," they said in the interview. "I feel super emotional about it because ... the last two years have been a really, really mad time of experimentation, of finding myself with my gender expression, with so much that has happened the last two years. It's captured in this music."

While Smith has a reputation for writing heartbreaking songs, they said Love Goes may just be their first "proper heartbreak" record yet. "I'd say [this was] the first proper time I've been actually heartbroken. That feeling of they're gone, you can't sleep, the really, really bad feeling," they said. "The others were the idea of it and it was pure unrequited love. This, I would like to say that we loved each other. So, I definitely, definitely loved him. So yeah, it was proper."

When Smith was experiencing the first real heartbreak of their life, the star said that, along with working on their new album, they also turned to some classic pop divas like Beyoncé and Robyn for comfort. "I was like, 'The only way I'm going to get off my a-- and get out of bed is if I channel my Beyoncé, if I channel my Christina, and all these divas and I turned to them," they said. "Robyn, for me, was huge on this record. Just listened to her nonstop because I could dance and be sad at the same time and feel empowered."

Heartbreak wasn't the only new experience for Smith in the last few years: In 2019, the superstar came out as non-binary and publicly changed their pronouns to "they/them." Smith says they weren't fully prepared for the public's response, both positive and negative. "What I've learned this year is people don't like to be wrong, and when people mess up a pronoun or something, they really don't like it," they said. "It kind of ruins conversations. It ruins moments. It's really difficult. So, I've had to just go into myself and try and deal with it in a real kind way and patience, and just know that everyone's working on this. It's going to take time. We're changing a language here. So, I'm trying to be patient with it."

Along with their new interview, Smith also announced on Monday (Oct. 26) that they would be releasing a brand-new music video Thursday night ahead of the album's release for their single "Kids Again." As a part of YouTube's weekly "Released" series, the video will premiere on Thursday at 11:45 p.m. ET.

Check out Smith's full interview with Zane Lowe below:

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