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Singer-Songwriter Georgi Kay Talks 'Hiding From the World' to Connect Through Isolation: Exclusive 'Lone Wolf' Video Premiere

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Georgi Kay, "LONE WOLF"

“Every song I make is like a therapy session in a way. It’s a chapter in my life that’s about a specific point in time or experience that I’ve had,” Georgi Kay says. “All you have to do to get to know me is listen to my songs.”

Though the singer-songwriter's not necessarily what you’d call an open book. Rather, Kay finds solace in a hideaway.

“For the most part, the whole creative process for every song is a very lonely path that I go down,” she says. “I hide myself from the rest of the world and my friends and my family. I just disappear.”

Kay writes alone. She produces tracks alone. She thinks, she creates, she daydreams alone -- it’s the only way she knows how. And she doesn’t seem to mind, learning that such solitude curiously keeps her most connected.

“I think the sadness and beauty of being human is that feeling of loneliness and the impending realization that no one is ever going to understand me like I do, no matter how hard they try,” she says. “But it’s ironic that we all feel so similarly this feeling that is so isolating.”

Even since she was little, the Australian-born artist would keep to herself, getting lost for hours and hours, she says, in the worlds she would construct in her mind, filled with landscapes and fictional storylines. “A healthy escapism,” she calls it, venturing down the faraway rabbit holes she burrows within the bounds of her imagination.

Now, Kay is bringing one of these worlds to real life in the music video for her new single “Lone Wolf,” debuting Tuesday (July 10) on Billboard. As the beat tumbles in, she wakes up in a wasteland, wandering around the wreckage of a home that once was.

“I thought of somewhere vast and isolated from the world but still somewhere I could actually get to to film a video. The desert was a no-brainer for me,” she says. “It looks sort of like a limbo, this random mess in the middle of nowhere. A bunch of dead trees, broken bits of stuff that people once owned that are now left to rust.”

The outsider breathes it all in with a wave of visible introspection, brushing her hair back, kicking up dirt and maneuvering through her newfound space. Atop the rubble, she sings out to no one in particular but is met with someone who may have an answer.

“There’s a wolf that pops up out of nowhere out of the fog and is kind of weirdly beckoning me to follow it, leading me to a grave where, symbolically, I see myself in it,” she says. “It’s that sort of realization point: ‘I’m always going to be here in the dirt.’”

Leading up to the chorus, Kay sings, “My city is dirt/ My home, my heart, my town.” She pledges a loyalty to her inalienable past, to the places where she’s come from, both good and bad, with a work-with-whatcha-got spirit fueled by the sureness of her identity.

“I will always be that lone wolf and there’s nothing you can do. I’m always going to be this way. It’s in my blood and every fiber of my being,” she says. “You know when you’ve realized something about yourself and you voice it to yourself and it’s like the huge release of weight? I think it’s a very powerful thing.”

Kay identifies as gay and feels fortunate to have grown up so in Australia. Though she faced “a lot of shit every day,” she says it’s important for her to keep in mind that it’s probably incomparable to what others go through.

For Kay, her music does not just tell her own story, but welcomes the retelling, reconstruction and revival of her words so that others may too discover their own power.

“I write to make a kind of safe space for anyone to put their own spin on it,” she says. “I think that’s what real art is. I think anyone from the LGBTQ community could listen to the song and feel super empowered and feel like they can relate to that.”

Through loneliness, Kay discovers her most powerful weapon: a self-awareness completely inaccessible to others. A property no one else can take from her. The certainty that, no matter how rough the waters get, her singularity will always be the unshakable beacon she needs.

“‘Lone Wolf’ is very much an anthem of individualism, and it can be expressed in so many different ways: in your sexuality, your race, your religion or political decisions, anything you have chosen to be your path,” Kay says. “It becomes a song that anyone can relate to. And it’s funny because if anyone can relate to it, all those conflicts we have with sexuality or religion or race should dissipate and we all kind of win. It’s a nice feeling.”

Kay will spend all of August in the studio recording and mixing the tracks for her full-length debut, Where I Go to Disappear, the name of which came to her from an offhand comment made by her cinematographer, Thomas Taugher, during a desert scouting trip for the video.

“There was this little shack in the middle of the desert abandoned, and he was like, ‘Wow. This is where someone goes to disappear,’” she says. “And I thought, ‘I like that a lot.’ It really fits with every song on the album and the whole process of creating the album. I really hid from the world to create it and to do it.”

But Kay’s not hiding anymore: She’s got 11 tracks, 11 therapy sessions, 11 previously untold chapters and experiences in her life ready to share with the world.

“It’s hard with a debut album. It’s a big body work, not something to just test out the waters. It’s a statement piece,” she says. “It’s like wearing some big Gucci coat outside and hoping people like it. It’s expensive. It’s dramatic. And I’m just very excited.”

Where I Go to Disappear is set to release November 2. Watch the "Lone Wolf" video below:

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