Everything kind of came full force once we got off tour and started the record. We literally only had two weeks off in between our last tour date and stepping into the studio, so it was just going from 100 miles an hour to zero and that in itself was kind of an emotional whiplash… figuring out how to be human again. That was the first break we had in the past three years and the first break we had to sit and process everything.
That’s when the numbness and the emptiness became very apparent. Going into the studio and working on this record was all I was really looking forward to. This was the light at the end of the tunnel, and I had finally gotten there and I felt nothing from it, and in that moment when I realized that and realized how heartbreaking that was to not even want to be at the one thing we were looking forward to, to feel nothing from it and to be completely empty and naked of ideas. That moment I was like, “Okay, I need to talk to somebody and start to rewire my brain and get help.” It is definitely an ongoing process, and I’m still trying to rework it and figure it out, but I’m definitely in a much better place now than when we started the record and when we were on tour last year.
Do you feel comfortable talking about who you opened up to and what that was like?
Yeah, I mean to be completely candid, I started going to therapy and just getting help in that form and it really, really did help, but it took a lot of pushing for me to get there. I was on a lot of calls with management and my family just being like, “I don’t know what to do.”
At this point there was pressure to get the record done and be in the right headspace for it, but I couldn’t get out of it, and so there was a lot of pushing and pulling that eventually got me in there, and I started to figure everything out… Like I mentioned, I think the most important thing I learned through that was not to bottle up emotions and be vulnerable and be present when you do feel something and take ownership of what you’re feeling and not feel guilty for feeling negative emotions and just kind of honoring everything that you’re feeling, rather than just the positive and the happy.
Yeah, totally. Therapy helps with that.
Yeah, I had never been before and I was always very against it and didn’t want to admit that I needed to go to it… Like I mentioned, I’m just very in control of everything else in my life and my career, so it was hard to let go in that sense and accept help from an outside source.
PVRIS' sophomore album, All We Know of Heaven, All We Need of Hell, is due Aug. 4 on Rise Records