Beyoncé Reflects on Turning 40 in Heartwarming Thank You Letter: 'I'm So Grateful to be Grown, Grown'

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Beyoncé accepts the Best Rap Performance award for 'Savage' onstage during the 63rd Annual GRAMMY Awards at Los Angeles Convention Center on March 14, 2021 in Los Angeles, California.

Beyoncé closed out Virgo season on Thursday (Sept. 23) with a personal thank you note to her family, friends and fans who helped wish her a happy 40th birthday earlier this month.

In a lengthy handwritten letter posted to her official website, Queen B retroactively wished her fellow Virgos a happy birthday and thanked the BeyHive for helping her ring in the big 4-0 on her birthday, which was Sept. 4. The B'Day singer then launched into a deep reflection on how this was the "first year that I really understand what it means to be alive and to live in the moment" and debunked the notion that women turning 40 are supposed to "feel old or unhappy."

"I'm so thankful for every inspiring human who took the time to send me all the beautiful messages. I cried tears of joy and was covered in chilly bumps. Your videos, your posts, your countdowns, your playlists and your well wishes, I will cherish forever," she wrote. "I'm grateful to everyone involved, especially the fans, for the time and level of detail it took to organize such beautiful tributes. I admire and respect all of you and I thank you from the bottom of my heart."

Billie EllishTaylor SwiftStevie Wonder and more came (virtually) together for a star-studded four-minute video tribute, published by Harper’s Bazaar, to celebrate Bey as a cultural icon. Apple Music also rallied the all-star troops, including Megan Thee Stallion, Doja Cat, Ciara, DJ Khaled, J Balvin, Lil Nas X and more, for another celebratory b-day video message. But while they gave the legendary artist her flowers, the Tiffany & Co. ambassador dropped some real-life gems about what comes with turning 40.

"This is the first year that I really understand what it means to be alive and to live in the moment. It's the first time that I have an understanding of how fragile life truly is, how hard life can be at times, and therefore how important it is to stop and smell the roses during the good times," she continued. "I thought I knew that at 21 or 30 ... but I didn't. The more mature I become, the more I understand and the deeper my joy grows. There's a freedom and liberation knowing that I've made it to the other side of my sacrifice. I'm finally giving myself permission to enjoy the seeds I've worked so hard to plant my whole life."

Her mother Tina Knowles-Lawson shared a touching video that proved every seed her multihyphenate daughter planted did indeed blossom into flowers by placing an old Beyoncé Access Hollywood video interview, where she answered what she would like to accomplish by the time she turns 40, side-by-side with a video montage that showed how she checked off everything on that list.

"Whoever tried to condition women to feel that we are supposed to feel old or unhappy when we turn 40 got it ALL THE WAY F'd UP. This has absolutely been the best I've felt in my life. I'm so grateful to be GROWN, GROWN!" the letter concluded. "Most of y'all met me when I was 15, and we have grown up together. You bring sooooo much joy into my life. I hope my art can continue to bring a little joy into yours."

Bey signed off the letter with an "I Love You" followed by the word "Deep" cleverly spelled out 40 times and a drawing of a bumblebee.