Kelly Osbourne Celebrates One Year of Sobriety, Reveals Struggle Following Relapse: 'Things Got Really Dark'

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Kelly Osbourne attends LOGO's Trailblazer Honors at The Cathedral of St. John the Divine on June 22, 2017 in New York. 

Kelly Osbourne reached an important milestone on Thursday (Aug. 9), but admits it wasn't easy.

The former reality star took to social media to share her one year of sobriety, with a bit of backstory on her relapse. "This past year has been one of the hardest years of my life and I feel it’s time share that with you guys," she wrote. "To cut a long story short things got really dark. I gave up on everything in my life but most of all I gave up on myself."    

After explaining that she turned to self-medication to help, she confidently revealed that she spent the last year out of the public eye to focus on herself and her health. She also thanked her famous family for all their support: "I want to take this time to thank my brother @jackosbourne who answered the phone to me one year ago today and picked me up from where I had fallen yet again without judgment. He has held my hand through out this whole process. Thank you to my Mum and Dad for never giving up on me. I love my family with all my heart."    

"I still don’t know who the fuck I am or what the fuck I want but I can whole heartedly confess that I’m finally at peace with myself and truly starting to understand what true happiness is," she ended on a positive note. "I’m sorry if I let anyone down it was just time for me to work on me! I love you guys!"   

 

This past year has been one of the hardest years of my life and I feel it’s time share that with you guys. To cut a long story short things got really dark. I gave up on everything in my life but most of all I gave up on myself. Life on life’s terms became to much for me to handle. The only way I knew how to function was to self medicate and go from project to project so I never had to focus on what was really going on with me. Something had to give... and it did. I have spend the past year truly working on my mind body and soul! I had to take a step out of the public eye away from work and give myself a chance to heal and figure out who the fuck I really am without a camera in my face. I want to take this time to thank my brother @jackosbourne who answered the phone to me one year ago today and picked me up from where I had fallen yet again without judgment. He has held my hand through out this whole process. Thank you to my Mum and Dad for never giving up on me. I love my family with all my heart. Thank you to the friends who have walked the path of sobriety with me I could not have done this with out there love and support. I can’t believe It’s been a year!!! I still don’t know who the fuck I am or what the fuck I want but I can whole heartedly confess that I’m finally at peace with myself and truly starting to understand what true happiness is. I’m sorry if I let anyone down it was just time for me to work on me! I love you guys!

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Osbourne has struggled with addiction since the age of 13, when she started taking Vicodin after getting her tonsils removed. Her six-year battle with substance abuse led to four rehab visits and a visit to a mental institution. 

“For me, it was either I was going to die, or I was going to get help,” she told People in 2009. “I decided that I wanted to live, that life is worth living and that I have an incredible family and friends and why am I allowing myself to be so miserable?”