My initial thinking is that I have sung for Presidents in the past and it was presented to me as a welcome concert for the people. That’s what I focused on, the “for the people” part. I’m thinking, “This will be great, I’ll have an opportunity to represent and have my voice be healing and unifying out on the Mall at the Lincoln Memorial.” So that’s really what I was thinking and, regretfully, I did not take into account what that symbolized to other people.
I was really thinking that it was going to be for America and participating in history and especially because it was going to be the day before the inauguration and I’m thinking it’s just a concert of music out on the mall.
What type of feedback have you been hearing since the announcement went out yesterday morning?
It’s amazing because I’m not a person that gets a lot of attention or that seeks a lot of attention. And I’ve spent all day yesterday and all last night reading all the terrible things that people were saying about me.
And even being called by my own black people a “n-----,” a “house n-----,” “c--n, “Uncle Tom,” people suggesting I should kill myself, a “traitor,” all kinds of things. It was very frightening and very alarming and overwhelming as well to see those kinds of things. It’d be different if I’m out there all the time trying to make headlines or something.
How did the process work as far as withdrawing from the concert a day after the announcement?
I thought about it and about 3:00 a.m., after someone sent me an email of an article from The Daily Beast from the gay community. I read that and it really struck home with me. The gay community has been so faithful and good to me. We share a bond because I really feel that there’d be no Jennifer Holliday or even a Dreamgirls lasting and being still relevant in this 21st century, some 35 years later, if it had not been for the gay community. Also, in the early '80s was the start of the HIV epidemic, at that time it had no name, I was right in the middle of that with the gay community.
That [letter], because of the way they structured it and to give me insight on what was really going on with them and their fears and their concerns about what their fate will be now, that got me right at the heart. Because I don’t want my name to be associated with heartbreak or sadness thinking that I’m in support of something, when I’m just thinking that I was just singing a song. I had no reason to try to say “OK, well, I’m making a point” by singing. I just thought I was singing to have my voice lend hope and healing and love and that sort of thing.
Have you spoken with the Trump Inaugural Committee since you made the decision not to perform?
I sent them a letter this morning, an email, and they acknowledged that they got it and that’s all they said. I don’t know what they’re going to do.
Now that you’ve been through the process, do you think an accepting an invitation like that, to perform, is a political statement?
Well, I don’t feel like that but I guess now that’s what will be the future of doing things like that. Now when you sing or appear at things it’s no longer just a performance it means that you support or you believe what that person is standing for. So, I know that now.
You performed at Rep. John Lewis’ 75th birthday celebration in 2015, what do you make of Donald Trump’s tweets about him this weekend?
How could he say this to a man who sacrificed so much? Not just for African-Americans but just for America, so that America could be better. I have a personal bond with Congressman Lewis, he loves my singing, I sang at his wife’s funeral by special request. I just couldn’t believe that.
I was like, “Is he serious by saying that he’s ‘all talk and no action’?” He’s already taken the action, the ultimate action, his blood on the bridge. It’s like, “Really?”
I thought that was just very disrespectful and an insult to every person.
This article originally appeared in THR.com.