Kid Cudi Checks Into Rehab: 'There's a Ragin' Violent Storm Inside of My Heart'

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Kid Cudi performs at 2015 Lollapalooza at Grant Park on Aug. 1, 2015 in Chicago.

Kid Cudi has checked himself into rehab citing depression and suicidal urges. 

The hip-hop star shared the troubling news with a confessional message posted Tuesday night (Oct. 4) to his Facebook page. 

Cudi repeatedly apologized as he admitted hiding his demons from the wider world for too long. “I am not at peace. I haven't been since you've known me,” he revealed to his 10 million-plus followers. “If I didn't come here, I would've done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin' violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I don't trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling.”

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Cudi, who signed off with his birthname Scott Mescudi, did not disclose the location and institution name as of press time. He assured his goal is to “fix me” and his music biz team has his back while he recovers.

It’s a worrying turn of events for the artist who has spoken in the past of his struggles with depression and drugs. Cudi had been moving forward with new music, dropping the track "Frequency" early this year and putting his critically panned alt-rock album, 2015’s Speedin’ Bullet 2 Heaven, in the rearview. In May, Cudi hinted at a new album carrying the title Passion, Pain and Demon Slayin. The following month he tweeted he would release two albums in 2016. A Sept. 5 release was teased, but that date came and went. 

“I won't be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases,” he explained in his latest post. “The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise.” 

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If all goes well, Cudi adds, he’ll be out in time for the Nov. 5-6 ComplexCon at Long Beach. “Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. I’m sorry.”

Billboard has reached out to Kid Cudi's rep for comment.

Read his message in full below. 


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