Michelle Shocked Speaks Out as Full Audio of Meltdown Emerges

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No rant, just a slow-moving meltdown. The full audio of Michelle Shocked's anti-gay and tour-torpedoing comments at the start of a concert in San Francisco has emerged, right on the heels of her first full statement since the Sunday show.

Shocked's comments at the club, called Yoshi's, have drawn condemnation for declaring that the apocalypse may occur if a gay marriage ban in California were overturned and preachers were "forced" to perform gay weddings.

"My view of homosexuality has changed not one iota," she said, according to a statement given to Buzzfeed. "I judge not. And my statement equating repeal of Prop 8 with the coming of the End Times was neither literal nor ironic: it was a description of how some folks -- not me -- feel about gay marriage."

But at Yoshi's, Shocked drew no such distinction, and in published audio the "Anchorage" singer can be heard offering her uninhibited thoughts on religion.

"I was at a prayer meeting yesterday, and you gotta appreciate how scared folks on that side of the equation are. I mean, from their vantage point, and I really shouldn't say 'their' because it's mine too, we are nearly at the end of time," she began. "And from our vantage point we're gonna be, uh … once Prop 8 gets instated, and once preachers are held at gunpoint and forced to marry the homosexuals, then I'm pretty sure that will be the signal for Jesus to come on back."

At that point, Shocked paused and the San Francisco crowd laughed uncomfortably. She then asked, in a sarcastic tone, if "someone would be so gracious to tweet out 'Michelle Shocked just said from the stage God hates faggots -- would ya do it now?"

Again, members of the audience chuckled, perhaps holding out hope that Betty White or Ashton Kutcher would pop out and reveal a TV prank show.

"You're confounded," she told the confounded audience. A man near the audio recording device noted, "there's gonna be a lot of people talking about that."

"I ain't scared," she responded. "This is not a tribunal. This is one woman's opinion, and it's fun. It's a lot of fun. I am so committed to loving each and every soul in this room tonight."

After being confronted by audience members, she quotes scripture in Spanish (John 3:16) and then performed a long, rambling story-song. Nearly ten minutes after her initial anti-gay marriage comment, the song ends and there's more shouting. "That was rotten," said one concertogoer. "That was a horrible thing to say, if that's what you believe."

After an audience member shouted "Don't come to San Francisco saying that shit!" the singer then noted that would make a good tweet. "Your reality is tweets," a woman very close to the stage is heard saying. "According to this show we've spent about 20 percent of the show on tweets, 80% was the show, and 40% was homophobia."

At some point, an employee of the venue tried to end the show, even shutting Shocked's microphone off, but she continued to play for several minutes as the audience shuffled around. Later, Shocked expressed worry that she would not be paid for her performance and asked for money.

"So I'd like to pass the hat and ask if you wouldn't mind putting in a dollar in for the folk singer, for the busker, for the street performer," she said. "And if that's too kind maybe you'll support my initiative, a song book, with sheet music in it. You can read the words. You can see for yourself, between the lines."

The night ended with a Tiny Tim quote: "All I'm trying to say is God bless us everyone."

As previously reported, Shocked's comments resulted in the cancellations of at least ten upcoming U.S. tour dates, including the Telluride Bluegrass Festival in June.