Watch: Marie Osmond Discusses Son's Suicide on 'Oprah'
Video: Marie Osmond Opens Up About Her Son's Suicide on "Oprah"
Osmond's son jumped to his death from the roof of his apartment building this past February after struggling with substance abuse and depression. To help cope with the loss, Osmond made the controversial decision to go back to work, performing with her brother Donny in Las Vegas, the day after her son's funeral.
For the first time since the incident, Osmond is speaking out about what she proclaims as the hardest thing she's ever had to go through.
"I've been through some tough things in my life, Oprah. This is probably the hardest that I've been through," she said. "I think there are always what-ifs. ... I think if you live in what-ifs, you stop living."
Michael had attempted suicide previously in 2007 when Osmond divorced from her second husband, but promised his mother he wouldn't do it again. The singer took the time during the interview to dismiss rumors that her son was a closeted homosexual, which may have lead to his depression.
"My son was not gay," Osmond told the talk show host. "He wanted to be married and have a family and travel all over the world. And it wouldn't matter if he was. I have a daughter who is gay, and it was my daughter who was offended by it, like, 'What? All gay kids commit suicide?' She really wanted it cleared up."
Osmond explained that the reason behind going back to work so soon after the tragedy was that the stage has always been a safe place for her, and she felt that if she didn't return to the stage so soon after Michael's death that she may have never found the courage to perform again.
Osmond was in tears throughout the emotional interview, but said that she's learned everything from her children. "We don't teach them anything," the singer said. "They teach us to have strength for them."