Nicki Minaj Opens Up About Her Abortion: 'I Thought I Was Going to Die'

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Nicki Minaj attends the Alexander Wang fashion show during Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week Spring 2015 at Pier 94 on September 6, 2014 in New York City. 

Nicki Minaj opened up about her abortion in her interview with Rolling Stone, saying she thought she "was going to die."

"I was a teenager. It was the hardest thing I'd ever gone through," she continued. Minaj became pregnant when dating her first love, an older guy from Queens, N.Y., while attending Manhattan's LaGuardia High School.

The decision to abort has "haunted me all my life," but she stands behind her decision: "It'd be contradictory if I said I wasn't pro-choice. I wasn't ready. I didn't have anything to offer a child."

Minaj alludes to the abortion in The Pinkprint single "All Things Go," rapping, "My child with Aaron would have been 16, any minute."

Minaj touched on the abortion early in her career, on  "Autobiography." But she "didn't expect anyone to hear." In the third verse of "Autobiography," she alludes to people telling her she wasn't ready to have a baby, and asks for her unborn child's forgiveness:

"Please, baby, forgive me, mommy was young/ Mommy was too busy, trying' to have fun/ Now I don't pat myself on the back, for sending you back/ 'Cause God knows, I was better than that… Listened to people who told me I wasn't ready for you/ But how the f--- would they know what I was ready to do?"