Bennington was an open book when it came to the darkness he wrestled with, from talking about depression, anxiety and substance abuse, to revealing that he was molested by an older man over several years when he was a child. In the wake of his death an interview he gave to Music Choice in February has resurfaced, shedding further light on the painful inspiration for the song.
Bennington explained that all of the songs on the album began with conversations about what was going on in the band members' lives at the time, some of which he tagged as "heavy stuff." Even when life is good, he said, he's uncomfortable "all the time, so his goal was to just live life on life's terms and not just try to be happy all the time.
"My whole life, I've just felt a bit off," Bennington said in one of the Music Choice clips. "I find myself getting into these patterns of behavior and thought -- especially when I'm stuck up here [in my head]. I like to say that 'this is like a bad neighborhood, and I should not go walking alone.'" Bennington was forthright in pinpointing the location of many of his struggles. "Most of my problems are problems that I cause myself," he said. "That's what that song's about -- that time when you consciously look at that. Once you acknowledge what it is, you can separate yourself from it and do something about it, as opposed to just being in it."