In the latest episode of the Song Exploder podcast, Billie Eilish reveals the nightmare fuel behind her hit "Everything I Wanted."
Brother/collaborator Finneas told host Hrishikesh Hirway that song, which dropped last November, almost didn't get released at all. “We were at the tail-end of working on Billie’s debut album and we were having that sort of second-guessing moment where we thought, ‘Do we have every song for this album? Should we try writing one or two more?’,” Finneas said in the episode, which included a discussion about the original voice memo that helped birth the song.
The siblings said they first began working on the track near the end of Sept. 2018 as they were wrapping work on Eilish's Grammy-winning debut, When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?, with Finneas noting that they were wondering if they needed a few more songs to fill it out. Eilish said he'd had a dream the night before in which she jumped from a building to her death. "The whole dream was me watching how everything went after I’d died,” she said.