Diddy Tearfully Opens Up About Losing Kim Porter: 'God Sent Her to Me to Teach Me Something'

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Sean "P. Diddy" Combs and Kim Porter arrive at the 27th Annual Kennedy Center Honors Gala at The Kennedy Center for the Performing Arts Dec. 5, 2004 in Washington, DC. 

For the first time since Kim Porter's tragic death  from pneumonia complications in November, Sean "Diddy" Combs opened up about the repercussions and changes he's made in life following the loss of the mother to three of his children in a heartfelt May cover story for Essence. With Diddy's approval, the magazine decided to release the unedited raw audio of the business mogul's conversation with dream hampton on Thursday (May 9) for the world to hear.   

"Anybody that’s lost a mother or lost a soulmate, it takes time. It takes time. They say time heals all wounds when it comes to mothers, [but] I don’t think that’s the case," he tearfully admitted. "I don't think anyone would ever understand how hard it is to be a black mother."   

Diddy takes solace in the fact that "god sent [Kim] for me to teach me something," Combs emotionally stated regarding his soulmate. "There’s levels and dimensions to love, and especially love between a man and woman There’s this place that almost goes beyond friendship. It’s where two people actually feel like a level of responsibility to love this person forever; and a total trust."   

  

Listen to the entire clip below.