2019 American Music Awards

Orlando Nightclub Shooting Survivor Patience Carter Recruits Nitty Scott, L'Shai & Iliana Eve for 'Lost Souls': Premiere

Bryson Davis
Patience Carter

Almost six months after the horrific shooting that took place in Orlando's LGBT nightclub Pulse that left 49 dead in June, survivor Patience Carter recruits Orlando MC Nitty Scott, singer Iliana Eve and L'Shai for the emotional track "Lost Souls." The song -- co-produced by Jonathan Hay, Sean Dean, Mike Smith, DJ Hannahbella and Benny Reid -- features the four female artists speaking on their individual experiences overcoming pain and struggle. 

Philadelphia native Carter, 20, was on vacation with two of her friends, Tiara Parker, 20, and Akyra Murray, 18, when they went to Pulse. She and Murray ran outside of the club once they heard gunshots but returned inside to try and locate Parker. Unfortunately, Murray did not survive. Carter was also shot in both of her legs, with a bullet shattering her femur bone. A metal rod and screws were placed into the bone in order for her to heal. She has since recovered physically but the shooting still haunts her.

"[Producer] Jonathan Hay contacted me about doing the song, and I just felt inspired to write something that lets the world know where I am mentally and physically. It's been about six months after the shooting, but whenever I hear a loud noise...time doesn't matter anymore, I feel like I'm back in Pulse," Carter tells Billboard.

She adds, "The survivor's guilt was a hard thing to process mentally, but now I'm just trying to remember how to live without constant fear of dying. And the lyrics just reflects my reality, while I'm adjusting back to my life before the shooting."

On June 12, a heavily armed gunman named Omar Mateen opened fire and took hostages at the popular Florida gay bar. Mateen pledged his allegiance to ISIS before being shot and killed by a SWAT team. The shooting, considered the largest mass shooting in U.S. history, left at least 53 other people hospitalized.

Listen to "Lost Souls" below:

UPDATE (June 12, 2017): On the anniversary of the Pulse nightclub massacre, Patience Carter has shared a remix for "49 Lives." "I love the remixed version of the song so much... it's hauntingly vulnerable," she says in a statement sent to Billboard. "Opening the song with my poem really sets the tone for the artists to open themselves up and honestly share their experiences. It's definitely an emotional song but the power lies in the art of expression."


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